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Dear You,


Yes I kept on hiding this feeling for almost a year and a half now. And I know that youre not aware about it. But I guess Ill never let you know.

If to be loved is the only possible thing that can make a person completely happy, then I would rather accept the fact that Ill never be happy in my entire life, cause the decision is with you whether if you will love me or not. And I know perfectly that your decision will not give me the happiness that Im longing for.

For now I have to live in regrets, regret from leaving you and staying away from you. I know I made it so easy for you to hate me, hate me even as much as I hate myself from loving you completely. I thought to be bitter is the only way for me to escape from the reality that Im falling for you badly. And now I just have to let myself be sorry for it.

If you only realize how much youve hurt me before because of loving someone who is so close to my heart. Its like your killing me each time you tell me how much you love him. If you only know how much I love you also.

Honestly, Ive never felt this feeling in my entire life. To fall for someone and live with the fact that, that someone will never ever feel the same way for me. Its undeniably painful dear.

Yes indeed, Ive just realized how much I still love you, how much Im wiling to take the risk just to be with you. Eating my pride isnt such an easy thing to do for it invaded my freedom to use my mind over my heart this time.

Sometimes Im thinking if you already knew about it, if you already realized how much I love and hate you at the same time. But I guess youll never know because your too focus on loving someone, someone who is better than me, and someone whom I can never be.

I would rather keep my feelings than to let you know. Youll just have to figure it out yourself.
PS: If you dont feel the same way now, but you think that there might be a chance for us to be together someday, just please let me know because even if it wont work in the end "Ill still grab every single chance just to be with you."

Love, ME........

NISHA

prefer to suicide than alive !

Written By A Guy:)

Girls Need To Realize:

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you,
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
That it can't wait till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!
dont 'feel bad'
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.

Smile and say 'thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

     Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
                or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
           Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
       Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
       It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for    that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'
i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

    On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!!
Ditch his sorry ass, disgrace to the male population
and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
~Someone who will honor your morals.
~Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.
~Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
~Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
~Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

     Give the nice guys a chance.
            Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it's cute.
           Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this,
                   so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.

ADVICE:



*Holding Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of
times.

*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her
too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars
Girls: When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

*Depends to you whether ITS TRUE OR FALSE?

Life is tooooooooooo much busy...lotsa homeworks...school...tuitions..oh yeah..well lets go to my tuition...a sad lame story..I dislike the tuition like hell....sucks man!serioulsy...all of them over there are weird...a girl*dont want to mention her name*...i was talking with karthik while eating cherry tomato...well,I LOVE TOMATO A LOT...back to story..this girl came to me and showed her phone..it was a guy pic..i thought she show me her brother pic..so I say chun la ur brother...n than she response back telling that its her lover..I say ''owhhh okay''...so I ask why wanna show me ur bf pic?she say wanna ask u whether he is suitable for me or no?..I was like errrmmmm ok la...n than she started craping like crazy...i was oh god help me out...than another girl...can be said that she is pretty...she have a list of unknown numbers...as usual la...but she over acts lar..she writes all the numbers in a paper and asks all the guy whether its their number or no...damn perasan lar...i was what the hell...aiiyeeerrrrr...than guys are ok la..i only prefer Karthikgeyan,Sam,Agilan,Joel and Rajendran...that ALL...after all,i dont prefer that tuition at all...most probably gonna change to ETC:)

SCHOOL....we had lotsa fun today in school during biology...me,hardip and avanish...actually I never want to mention what we was doing...*sungguh memalukan*hehe:)

SMI IU DAY...damn impatient...gonna berlepak-ing with my sweetheart again...sweet and perfect:)<3

P/s Im fine and happy with the friends I hang out now...so u dont have to worry about it..I know what I am doing...Im feeling so perfect with the people are around me now...I agree we were close once...but not now...and never will

F-U-N F-A-I-R ! ! !

Owhh...such a tired day..woke up at 6am..reached at school at 7am...and begin with my stall...busy busy busy....Kogie came at 8am and she found me in my stall...sweetie:)..than my duty ends at 9am and than start to berlepak-ing with her...walk here and there...than saw Azim...a huge hug..*guess what...everyone begin to look weird...whatever..he is my friend dude!...and angry with Arvind...ish :(...and guess what...I went parade...actually it is not allowed...we ran from our school...LOL...damn tiring..we walk from MGS to parade...went through jungle and all...hehe...went with Azim,Sara,Kogie,Sri,Yugan and Nisha...:)than went to Sky Max...bought two teddy bears...Nasi kandar guy bought A HUGE TEDDY BEAR...It costs RM120...actually I was arguing with that chinese guy over there...he never give %...stingy..than he say no plastic pulak coz very big...I was like I want a plastic..at last he got one..cutie chinese guy:)we had lot of fun in the parade...cant tell coz some are so private..but serioulsy damn enjoying with Sri,Azim and Sara...Kogie went back to school:(...and I went without my parents knowing...at last my mom know ready...and she say ITS OK pulak!...suprised like hell...anyhow lotsa fun with u guys..thanks..love lotsa

I just do what I want..It's not about what people are saying about me:)

I wanna be known as the girl who always smile even when her heart is broken

And the one who could brighten anyones day even when she couldn't brighten her own

I went to my new tuition yesterday...at first I was kinda blur...new people...non of the girls I know,only noe few boys..was quite and good...than this guy name karthikgeyan...he know me since last year...he came to me and ask me"how could U be so quite''??....I just smile:)than during physics I cannot bertahan ready...keep on bersilent-ing for so long...so I went and sit with the guys I know..i was like whatever...who cares...the people around look at me weird...but I have no else choice:(...and we are allowed to use handphone...so I was bertexting with Azim,Bala n Karthik=)....than after tuition ends,I was waiting for transport...so a girl came n was talking to me...while was talking,.i heard my phone numbers..a gang of boys was like ''singing'' my phone number...I was like what the fuck?...I dun noe them at all and they noe my num....OMG...!!!but I just pretend that is not my number...than in the van..oh god!...the boys was like berinterview-ing me....damn weird...so ignore them,i was texting with Eli and Arkkhesh..and I never noe that this guys behind me were actually reading my text..i was like damn pissed off...but I reamin being ''good''...after all,the guys are nice n ok la...its like they can go along with me:)

Sorry....I don't know what makes u to tell so...but true from my bottom of my heart...I never hate u...U are not my enemy....but I dont understand anything...A sorry from u doesnt make everything perfect..It just dont make any different in any way...so just be how u are and I will be how i am...its like u are unknown for me...no difference

So its PESTA RIA tomorrow...:)...joys funs and so on...hope all will be fine''

                          BE WHO YOU ARE AND SAY WHAT YOU FEEL BECAUSE THOSE WHO MIND DON'T MATTER AND THOSE WHO MIND DON'T MATTER

ASDFGHJKL:)

CHORAL SPEAKING...its tomorrow...even I have skipped from choral speaking but still I have the high spirit...anyhow my school team is gonna win....hooga hooga..boom boom pau!

PESTA RIA...Itz on saturday....wholalalala....~wheeesss~...kogie is coming..gonna berlepak-ing with her the whole time...sweetie:)...gonna have a blast..and impatient to see someone:)

DRAMA....itz next week..hope my school mates will win..coz all of them had try very hard...esp. 4S1..:)

Love Azim..he uses DIGI:)...can text him everyday...bangbongboombang

Miss Kogie:(...anyhow gonna see her again this saturday...*cheese*..she calls me everyday and she reminds me about this saturday...love her~xoxo~

Im angry with Arkkhesh..he talks to me everyday..and he never tell me that he was injured...:(his knee got injured..i never text him last nite..was so angry..*merajuk*even he text over and over..actually I slept off...hehe:)LOL(:

Rain..take care of urself...:)

Ganes is so terrible naughty..he has lotsa money and he dont wants to buy me food:(

anyway Im impatient for this weekend...gonna enjoy and love lotsa:)

You

GET LOST FROM MY LIFE...!...MIND IT....!!!

Randomz...

Actually today whole day I was with my mom:)sweet kan?...mommy's child:)...went shopping with her..then had lunch with her..later on went clinic...at last back home:)..I saw Yoga in front parade today around 2pm..and Im sorry Arkkhesh:(...u called me twice and I never answer...sorry yar..mom was here...
Btw Im not going to school tomorrow..coz gonna go see dentist:)~wheee wheee~

Nisha Admires Him:)

Nisha Likes Him=)

Nisha Loves Him More Than Anything:)

Nisha Loves Him More Than Her Life=)

*never to ask:)will tell soon:)

I called u twice and even text u telling that I wanna talk to u urgent..U were too busy doing your add maths than answering my call...kay fine..its ok...will never call u anymore..sorry if I disturb U....

:)Can anyone teach me how to shut my mouth??

M_A_G_I_C

Something M_A_G_I_C happened today..I seriously cant believe at all...Im sure u guys wanna know whatz that...actually I talked with Arkkhesh for about 1 hour 20mins...he called and talked..im creditless=)but Im a little comfused...anyway whatever...will see what happens next..Praise the LORD!=)

I May Be Clueless And Clumsy But I Have Friends Who Love Nisha!

A Best Friend  Is the One Who Can Look At You With The Biggest Smile On Your Face And Still Knows Something Is Wrong

Forever And Always

Everything is fine now..Im feeling better and even happier after meeting Kogie today..After tution at 1pm,I went to SMC Kalvi Vilzha...I never even take my lunch..Talk and talk with her...At last I reliase that she need me more than anything..actually I never talk to her about a week..something which is impossible for me..but it just happen like that..magic!...I just dont want to disturb her..I just let her to be with Prisci and others..but she wants NISHA!..I love her=)(=even she is quite in tuition..not the noisy babe..she is totally down without me....so Im there for her FOREVER AND ALWAYS!....I will try my level best to change my tuition to weekdays again!..I dont even have a proper decision..LOL...After talking to her and vomiting everything,than only I felt better.I feel that Im away from all the problems..thanks my dear fren..and Im sorry for kepping u away for a week:(...well,just she called me...she called and asked me to promise her that I will be calling and talking to her EVERYDAY..!sweet loving friend...

And yeah..whatz your problem now la dehy...???haiz,seriously u make me pissed off..Do u know what is the meaning of ''bitch''?..If u wanna say,''Nisha is a bitch''....think twice,ok!...kay fine...I agree I am a bitch...so what u are...???I dont think so Im worst than U...!...I dont seek for relationship..unlike u..react like a ''street dog''!...bluekkk...I know that u dont want to mess up with me...coz u noe how worst I would be...Being quite for this past 3 months,doesnt mean Im afaird of u...ok!so just mind your own bussiness...I dont want to fight nor argue with u..!!!I know who I am...!

I pity Kogie:(...her mom pulled out the internet modem=(...pity her..anyway love her lotsa n miss her~xoxo~ 

Up-Side-Down

1st of ALL....Im joining my school's Choral Speaking Team=) HOOGA HOOGA HOOGA HOOGA....BOOM BOOM PAU BOOM BOOM PAU!...*cheers*lotsa fun and damn exciting..all the time LOL-ing...as usual..and Miss.Sharon K.Jessy is there....the lame one but still makes my life shalalala...and viji the best girl...{smile and cheers viji}..

I serioulsy hate some peoples nowdays!...pheww....how can some ''human'' react like this?...damn worst and I serioulsy feel yucky!...Stop bugging me with ur problems and gossips...fine,I know that u wanna be famous and all...but it will never happen..stop getting behind the guys that I KNOW!...and Im tired of hearing this n that...If u wanna love someone,juz go ahead,...dun have to tell me nor inform me..mind your own bussiness...As Viva say...Thatz thier problem lar...so true..Im going to cheange tuition too...going ETC=)~whee wheee~sorry kogie=(I cant help u babe..I never mean to be like this my friend..but people make me change..and I wont bother nor even care anything about u people anymore..I and my school mates only...I feel this is better..and this is how Im gonna be after this,,Im sorry if I had hurt anyone...Im being like this coz Im just fade up with u guys all...U people are juz doing the same mistake..whenever someone dont want u.juz get away from them..why some of u all being so insane for falling the same person..what a life?...what on earth is going on...???

so Nisha is going to life in a world of being selfish and dont care about others...wanna be Miss.Whatever=)

I LOVE MY FRIENDS,ESPECIALLY VIJI!

I woke up at 7 to go to Viji's house. Me,Kirsten,May Lynn,Sharon,Tina,Fung and Balveen went to Viji's house early in the morning to go to the Cultural Show in TCS. It was so much fun getting ready,talking crap,gossiping, and snapping a lot of pics.We planned to go to TCS at 9,but as the girls we are, we took forever to get ready and ended up going at 10 am. 


I met everyone that I know. The show was so boring,so we just decided to go home early. But the most awesome-st part was when we snapped pictures =) We also snapped pics before going to TCS. 


Had lunch at Viji's =) The food was EXCELLENT!! It was cooked by her aunt. Thnx auntie! After lunch,we didn't bother going back to Viji's room, we just sat at the dining room and gossiped till it was time to go home(uhh...tuition).


Btw, I told my dad that I was going for tuition at 2.30,but I had so much fun gossiping that I just decided go at 4.30....Oh,and dear Viji dropped me at tuition.


P.S. This post was typed by the one and only VIJI =) (and thats why u see my name a lot)
P.S.S. Nisha and Tina helped with the post.
P.S.S.S Nisha did not get along with my brother,and they r both the same height =S

US!!!!

Finally I'm Here=)

Well...

It has been a week since I never online...

Serioulsy I'm damn lazy to beronline

I prefer doing outdoors activities than sitting on the chair!

Lotsa stuff happen and Im going crazy around..

Oh yeah...

I have changed my tuitions to weekends from weekdays

and I prefer this more than anything

coz I feel better than looking at ur face 4 days in week

than not facing u now at all

Im hearing gossips bout u everyday and u except me to look at ur shitty face!

Never!

=)

than holidays passed so fast

never go anywhere

except to MGS every morning

=)

choral speaking practice

~wheee wheee~

today,fungi was a tour guide for us..she guide sharon,me,balween, and sarah frm MGS to 7 11...she made us walk 25km{sarah judged the distance}

so funny and had lotsa fun.....friends are really nice to hang around with=)

and whatz the bladdy wrong with u..are u in a motif of turning to a bitch?

u have changed a lot...I dun feel like calling u as MY BFF...

please change yourself...dont get behind guys...it sounds totally wrong!...change ur friends around u 1st than u will be changed by itslef

and yeah ELI is so damn nice..was texting with him from 9am till 12pm...LOLX

during choral speaking practice was too busy bertext-ing with him:)

I prefer with my fon than beronline

=)

~xoxoxo~

I

HATE YOU

What Should I Say?

   Well...today was a nice day=)sportz n than outing with mom and hanging in fon with Viji and Karthik and goosips and gossips....Love gossips=)..make me ~shalalala~.....was enjoy gossping with athi....i felt happy today..no problems no sad no heart feelings...love karthik a lot..he made me LOL today..with his lame and stupid jokes...than was texting with arvind..love him a lot..a guy who understands me more than anyone....I hate him,he also hate him...I scold her,he aslo scold her..nice guy....thanks my fren=).....
Btw...Viji is our BFF..so please for god sake stop telling that u r her BFF..so fake!
and wanna talk bad about me...just damn it..face me n scold me la..Im ready to face it..so dun have 2 go tell my frenz bad bout me...they wont believe u at all!!they are my FRIEND....!!!not like ur friends....talk bad about u behind well react good infront u!..:)(: .....Viji called me 4times today...wakaka..she is funny and nice...than athi...hmmmm a lot changes with her..just two days never talk with her and the world of her seems to be upside down...but at last I the one got to solve it..~BFF rockz~..Sharon....the girl seems to change a lot..she is the new one of 2010...to be true,i hate her so much in this year...she is so different..not like my old sharon..who loves to make noise..act dumb..be naughty..missing her=(...I want to watch Vinnaithaandi Varuvaaya...damn romantic=)...love lotsa~muax~

I Can't Stop Crying...=(

I just simply cant stop crying...
I was crying in my tuition from 6pm-8pm
I was not studying at all
I really cant understand why am I like this...?

Kogie needs me desperately today...
She wants me to care and comfort her at this moment
But I was too far from her
Instead of being beside her

Seriously I never want this to happen...
I told her that I would be there at 5.30pm
but I went tuition at 6pm
Im sorry for that
I made her waited....
I was so mean...

In the class,the clerk separate us...
Three of us was sitting too far from each other...
We couldnt do anything...
We was helpless....
We have being too much patient...
At 1st,the teacher said that we are getting guys attention...
Come on la...We are friendly...
We talk to everyone...
As usual,everyone knows that I talk to everyone that I see infront of my eyes...
If I never talk,at least I will smile...
IM NOT A PASIF GIRL...!!!!
unlike some idiots in my tuition...
who dares to complain...
but still I was patient n cool and I was good to her!
But on Monday,I got pissed off...
Kogie was talking properly to her and in sudden she said shut up to kogie....
well,this makes me ''high temper''
I scold her terribly and used bad words
Im sorry for that=(
If Im angry,I will just show off no matter who u are...
Im not the type of keeping feelings to myself...
I will just show up...

I dont know what should I do...???
I need help..
I cant make decision at all...
I want everyone...
..........

IM AN ORIGINAL....I DON'T NEED LABEL

Love yourself,
accept yourself,
forgive yourself
and be good to yourself
because without you the rest of us are without a source of many
wonderfull things.....

Be who you are
and say what you feel
because those who mind
don't matter and those who matter don't mind.........

    I choose......
to live by choice,not by chance;
to make changes,not excuses;
to be motivated,not manipulated;
to be useful,not used;
to excel,not compete;
I choose self-esteem,not self pity.
I choose to listen to my inner voice,
not the random opinion of others......