Friday, May 21, 2010

I MISS MY BLOG:(

*will update soon:)

Sunday, April 25, 2010

WHO...???

Dear You,


Yes I kept on hiding this feeling for almost a year and a half now. And I know that youre not aware about it. But I guess Ill never let you know.

If to be loved is the only possible thing that can make a person completely happy, then I would rather accept the fact that Ill never be happy in my entire life, cause the decision is with you whether if you will love me or not. And I know perfectly that your decision will not give me the happiness that Im longing for.

For now I have to live in regrets, regret from leaving you and staying away from you. I know I made it so easy for you to hate me, hate me even as much as I hate myself from loving you completely. I thought to be bitter is the only way for me to escape from the reality that Im falling for you badly. And now I just have to let myself be sorry for it.

If you only realize how much youve hurt me before because of loving someone who is so close to my heart. Its like your killing me each time you tell me how much you love him. If you only know how much I love you also.

Honestly, Ive never felt this feeling in my entire life. To fall for someone and live with the fact that, that someone will never ever feel the same way for me. Its undeniably painful dear.

Yes indeed, Ive just realized how much I still love you, how much Im wiling to take the risk just to be with you. Eating my pride isnt such an easy thing to do for it invaded my freedom to use my mind over my heart this time.

Sometimes Im thinking if you already knew about it, if you already realized how much I love and hate you at the same time. But I guess youll never know because your too focus on loving someone, someone who is better than me, and someone whom I can never be.

I would rather keep my feelings than to let you know. Youll just have to figure it out yourself.
PS: If you dont feel the same way now, but you think that there might be a chance for us to be together someday, just please let me know because even if it wont work in the end "Ill still grab every single chance just to be with you."

Love, ME........

Friday, April 23, 2010

NISHA

prefer to suicide than alive !

Monday, April 19, 2010

Written By A Guy:)

Girls Need To Realize:

We guys don't care if you talk to other guys.
We don't care if you're friends with other guys.
But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.
It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.
We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you,
but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned.
Nothing is that important at 2 a.m.
That it can't wait till the morning.
Also, when we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/
cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it.

Don't tell us we're wrong.

We'll stop trying to convince you.
The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence.

Yeah, you can quote me.
Don't be mad when we hold the door open.

Take Advantage of the mood im in.

Let us pay for you!
dont 'feel bad'
We enjoy doing it.
It's expected.

Smile and say 'thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching.

If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to
wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

     Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
                or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up.
Don't take everything we say seriously.
Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.
           Don't get angry easily.
Stop using magazines/media as your bible.
       Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown,
Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us.
       It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for    that.

Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful'
i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me
with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of.

    On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; )

Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!!
Ditch his sorry ass, disgrace to the male population
and find someone who will treat you with utter respect
~Someone who will honor your morals.
~Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

~Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.
~Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.
~Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it.

     Give the nice guys a chance.
            Guys repost this if you agree.
Girls repost this if you think it's cute.
           Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this,
                   so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.

ADVICE:



*Holding Hands
Girls :If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of
times.

*Movies
Girls : During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other
Guys : When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her
too... And mean it.

*Laying below the stars
Girls: When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.

*Depends to you whether ITS TRUE OR FALSE?

Friday, April 16, 2010

Life is tooooooooooo much busy...lotsa homeworks...school...tuitions..oh yeah..well lets go to my tuition...a sad lame story..I dislike the tuition like hell....sucks man!serioulsy...all of them over there are weird...a girl*dont want to mention her name*...i was talking with karthik while eating cherry tomato...well,I LOVE TOMATO A LOT...back to story..this girl came to me and showed her phone..it was a guy pic..i thought she show me her brother pic..so I say chun la ur brother...n than she response back telling that its her lover..I say ''owhhh okay''...so I ask why wanna show me ur bf pic?she say wanna ask u whether he is suitable for me or no?..I was like errrmmmm ok la...n than she started craping like crazy...i was oh god help me out...than another girl...can be said that she is pretty...she have a list of unknown numbers...as usual la...but she over acts lar..she writes all the numbers in a paper and asks all the guy whether its their number or no...damn perasan lar...i was what the hell...aiiyeeerrrrr...than guys are ok la..i only prefer Karthikgeyan,Sam,Agilan,Joel and Rajendran...that ALL...after all,i dont prefer that tuition at all...most probably gonna change to ETC:)

SCHOOL....we had lotsa fun today in school during biology...me,hardip and avanish...actually I never want to mention what we was doing...*sungguh memalukan*hehe:)

SMI IU DAY...damn impatient...gonna berlepak-ing with my sweetheart again...sweet and perfect:)<3

P/s Im fine and happy with the friends I hang out now...so u dont have to worry about it..I know what I am doing...Im feeling so perfect with the people are around me now...I agree we were close once...but not now...and never will

Saturday, April 10, 2010

F-U-N F-A-I-R ! ! !

Owhh...such a tired day..woke up at 6am..reached at school at 7am...and begin with my stall...busy busy busy....Kogie came at 8am and she found me in my stall...sweetie:)..than my duty ends at 9am and than start to berlepak-ing with her...walk here and there...than saw Azim...a huge hug..*guess what...everyone begin to look weird...whatever..he is my friend dude!...and angry with Arvind...ish :(...and guess what...I went parade...actually it is not allowed...we ran from our school...LOL...damn tiring..we walk from MGS to parade...went through jungle and all...hehe...went with Azim,Sara,Kogie,Sri,Yugan and Nisha...:)than went to Sky Max...bought two teddy bears...Nasi kandar guy bought A HUGE TEDDY BEAR...It costs RM120...actually I was arguing with that chinese guy over there...he never give %...stingy..than he say no plastic pulak coz very big...I was like I want a plastic..at last he got one..cutie chinese guy:)we had lot of fun in the parade...cant tell coz some are so private..but serioulsy damn enjoying with Sri,Azim and Sara...Kogie went back to school:(...and I went without my parents knowing...at last my mom know ready...and she say ITS OK pulak!...suprised like hell...anyhow lotsa fun with u guys..thanks..love lotsa

Friday, April 9, 2010

I just do what I want..It's not about what people are saying about me:)

I wanna be known as the girl who always smile even when her heart is broken
And the one who could brighten anyones day even when she couldn't brighten her own

I went to my new tuition yesterday...at first I was kinda blur...new people...non of the girls I know,only noe few boys..was quite and good...than this guy name karthikgeyan...he know me since last year...he came to me and ask me"how could U be so quite''??....I just smile:)than during physics I cannot bertahan ready...keep on bersilent-ing for so long...so I went and sit with the guys I know..i was like whatever...who cares...the people around look at me weird...but I have no else choice:(...and we are allowed to use handphone...so I was bertexting with Azim,Bala n Karthik=)....than after tuition ends,I was waiting for transport...so a girl came n was talking to me...while was talking,.i heard my phone numbers..a gang of boys was like ''singing'' my phone number...I was like what the fuck?...I dun noe them at all and they noe my num....OMG...!!!but I just pretend that is not my number...than in the van..oh god!...the boys was like berinterview-ing me....damn weird...so ignore them,i was texting with Eli and Arkkhesh..and I never noe that this guys behind me were actually reading my text..i was like damn pissed off...but I reamin being ''good''...after all,the guys are nice n ok la...its like they can go along with me:)

Sorry....I don't know what makes u to tell so...but true from my bottom of my heart...I never hate u...U are not my enemy....but I dont understand anything...A sorry from u doesnt make everything perfect..It just dont make any different in any way...so just be how u are and I will be how i am...its like u are unknown for me...no difference

So its PESTA RIA tomorrow...:)...joys funs and so on...hope all will be fine''

                          BE WHO YOU ARE AND SAY WHAT YOU FEEL BECAUSE THOSE WHO MIND DON'T MATTER AND THOSE WHO MIND DON'T MATTER